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God o’ wha?

I’ve avoided playing the PS3 demo for God of War thus far mainly through strength of will.

No, actually it’s because I pretty much know what I’m getting into, having played the previous two.  I’m not really the target audience that the demo is required reading for.  I mean, it’s a God of war game.

I assume that there will be Kratos, and some blades attached to his body with chains.  There will be the collecting of red and blue orbs and the mashing of the buttons as Kratos kills the entire population of Ancient Greece.  There will be some ultra violent minigames as he continues to kill more people and creatures in a Greek mythos based storyline of some sort, complete with a sexy minigame at some point that cuts away because it’s M rated.  Then it’s going to escalate into a boss battle that doesn’t really resemble any other part of the game.

The only surprise left for me is how good it is going to look.

If they surprise me in any other way, then awesome.  Otherwise, I’m hoping for a very competent, entertaining God of War game.

I’m going to pick Dan and still beat you

This is a point of nostalgia for me, and I think, part of the reason why it really gels as a fun game.

It’s the middle of summer and I live in a house with eight other twenty-younglings.  There is a cathode ray television, twenty-one inches of diagonal measured space that is on top of a flat piece of plywood that is held off of the floor by cinder blocks.  My PlayStation (the first one) is suspended upside down, elevated by two paper backs because it won’t load games otherwise.

Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo is the game that is loaded and hasn’t come out of the PlayStation in weeks.

Everyone plays.  Guests.  Girlfriends.  Housemates.  All talking trash and then having a good time.

Ah, misspent youth. (Continued)

Not all who lost, wander

It’s three dollar pizza and salad night, which means that it’s definitely on my to do list for the evening. It’s a long walk, and the pizza would be ready in fifteen minutes.  Which really meant fifteen minutes.  They are extremely timely, which is one of the reasons I do so much business with them.

I exit the door of the building and get onto Connecticut Avenue. I make a left. I don’t know if it’s north or south. To be honest, I’ve never been that good with the cardinal directions. It’s just not something that I’ve been able to learn.

I walk for a few blocks, saying hello to the other walkers. The snow has melted mostly, save for a few stragglers in the shadows of buildings. It is a beautiful night, although some would call it cold.

I see a young woman with a flashlight, walking very slowly. I stop to ask what she’s looking for.

“It’s my ring,” she says, barely audible. I nod. “I’ve had that nightmare too. I’ll keep an eye out for it.”

She ignores me as I take out a small LED flashlight.  It’s one of the keychain bits that I’ve added over the years. It’s bright and as I walk another block, I aim it downwards every now and again.

I pass the liquor store and say hello to the proprietors, outside for a smoke. I cut across Nebraska and give some lovers a courtesy cough as I come up behind them.  The woman startled as I pass and the man laughs good naturedly.  In general, it’s hard for people to notice me unless I really try.  It’s just something I’ve grown accustomed to over the years.  I tip my top hat and wish them both a good evening.  Dinner awaits.

It’s one of those locally sourced, feel good sort of place.  The interior is minimalist clean white walls and a menu along one wall.  The cashier looks up and asks for my name.  I give it to him.  He looks at me slightly puzzled but says nothing.  My order is ready and I swipe my debit card.  By the time I leave, he’s forgotten about me, just another Tuesday night customer.

The walk back is uneventful but it is when I see the young woman again that I realize that we have business to take care of.  My suitcase is next to her.  It is a battered boxy silver thing with a black handle and battered metal sides.  It is the weathering that makes it unmistakably mine.  It appears, as per our agreement, whenever I need it.

She is on the sidewalk, on the verge of tears.  I sit down, set the suitcase in front of her and open it.

Inside is a simple unadorned silver ring on a fine chain.  The clasp is broken, weakened by the daily wearing.  I smile.  “Ah, that’s how you lost it.”

She stares.

I take her hand,  pick up the chain and the ring and drop it into her upturned palm. I close the suitcase and start to stand.

“It’s a good thing it was dark.  When you shined that flashlight into the grass, you saw it shining back in the darkness.”

“Yes, it was.”  Her voice wavers, as if she is about to ask a question.

“Your grandmother was a wonderful woman and you were both lucky to have had the time together that you had.”

She starts to stand and I help her up.  She’s no longer crying.  As usual, my suitcase is already gone.  “Thank you,” she says.  “Thank you so much.”

I smile and pick up the plastic bag with the pizza and the salad.  “Don’t worry about it,” I tell her, but she already has.

The pizza and the salad are delicious, as usual.

Boxes

My life is filled with boxes.  Banker sized places to put things that I forget about for months at a time.  I go through them, individually, grudgingly.  It’s so much work to slough off bits and pieces of your life that were important at one point.  There are receipts from years ago, archives of purchases that are long gone, either digested or donated to charity.

There are outdated pieces of technology, joysticks that no longer have supported interfaces or computer components that are no longer functioning.  Whey they are around is a mystery, but I’m slowly solving it.  There are DVDs, stacks and piles of them, bought before the digital availability of them negated their usefulness.  And then there is the not easily classified, “stuff.”

Bits and pieces that were important at some point but have lost their usefulness as I have moved on, but their singular purpose has not.

Wall mountable speaker stands, cargo pants, reference books for car repair, bluetooth headsets that take batteries, persistence of vision messagers and of course, unrecognizable power adapters.  There are always power adapters.

There’s always a fear of course, fear that I’ll need them, but in the six years that I’ve lived here, they have taken space and given nothing back.  So it’s time to just get rid of them.

New equipment

New camera equipment that I have acquired:

  • 55-200mm VR Nikkor DX lens which rounds out my kit.
  • SB-900 Flash which acts as a commander for my two SB-600s, which also rounds out my kit.

The funny thing is, I’m shooting with the 35mm and the SB-400 and it’s just fine.

Heavy Rain

I really want to like Heavy Rain.  No, I really want Heavy Rain to be so good that I can’t help but enjoy Heavy Rain.

I know what I don’t want.  I don’t want it to be a compelling human drama and then suddenly turn into something completely ridiculous that I cared nothing for, but ended up having to finish simply because I had come too far not to.  Indigo Prophecy’s story had a lot of potential about a man committing a murder but being completely innocent at the same time.

But then it became something else entirely.  I would have been okay with it slowly turning into something with magical realism.  But it turned into this blathering seething mass of a story that didn’t seem to know what it was about.  It was as if they ran out of story budget and then everyone turned into orange goo.

I know only snippets about Heavy Rain’s storyline, little bits and pieces that I’ve gleaned from here and there.  There are four characters.  One of them is a special agent of some sort with super crime fighting sunglasses.  That’s about all I know so far, and I’m okay with that.  I really want to know more, but I want to experience it.  I want that wonder and awe I felt from playing the first half of Indigo Prophecy.

I just hope that it lives up to that promise.

Sigh

Going through the journals I found this line.

She told me, “I love you,” but I felt there was a “no matter what happens,” after it.

So.  Emo.  And that’s in 1995.